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Silence

The way of not speaking

it stands before you plainly

it is begging for your attention

silently of course

It came before, and so must you return

silence in its exacting fullness

all the many mute tongues

of the sages

all who surely know

so wise yet not saying, anything

nothing at all

speaking is one step away, after another

after another

stop right now

and retrace your steps

to find that source

that sacred place

before lips move

where non-utterance is saying

all that needs to be said

come from that place

where all words have their origin

where words will align

with that great wisdom

you will then speak

from the heart and with the soul

empathy,

 

what would you do

if you could do anything

if you could go anywhere

if you could do

whatever you wanted?

where would you go?

how would you spend

your time and money?

who would you see?

what kind of person

would you be?

where would you travel?

what would you see?

if money was no object

where would you be?

would you chill on the beach?

would you sail at sea?

what kind of car would you drive?

what kind of house would you have?

would you be happy?

would it make your life easier?

 

Let go of control.  Control is an illusion.  Completely give it up.  Things will happen to you in this life, loved ones may die, you may fall on hard times, all things that you cannot control.  Letting go is an art form, it is the way of the Buddha.  Letting things carry themselves out in their own time and place is key.  You must master the art of letting go.  Change what you can, and let go of everything else.  Your power comes not from controlling, but from letting go.  Being a “control freak” is a pathological disorder.  Yes, you are the master of your own life, but in order to truly master it, you must let the chips fall where they may.  Thinking that you can serve outcomes to your own needs is an illusion. 

 

What is the nature of the incarnation?  Let’s investigate following the concept of duality of the opposites, and paradox.  The incarnation is most likely a god-child; a couple examples being Horus and Krishna.  He would have equally male and female characteristics.  All-knowing, yet a naive child.  Blissfully unaware, yet knowing all things; very child-like.  He would have no preferences.  He would not be homosexual but He would see the beauty in both male and female persons; and of course the divine nature in all beings.  His incarnation would be a “coming out to play”, and the universe itself would be His playing also; divine play, divine sport, gods at play.  Naive, yet infinite wisdom.  He would have no beliefs, as all enlightened persons have absolutely none.  “The child”, Nietzsche says,

 

 

*Disclaimer: This is just a creative writing exercise,

intended to create a dark mood / feeling; the feeling of

someone trapped in isolation and depression with no way out.

If you are feeling like self-harm please talk to someone,

maybe go here or here.

 

some people cut themselves

just to feel something

to confront their pain

and face it head on

some people cut themselves

to feel alive

to know that they’re breathing

to know that they control

what happens in their life

they want to escape

they want to be present

they want to exist

but they might rather die

they want to scream out loud

nobody listening

they’re tired of people

with all of their lies

they want to be cared for

they want to be loved

but they’d much rather be

up above

at least someone cares up there

nobody gets them

no one is there

existence is pain

so why not confront it

hiding your pain

and creating your own

want to be heard

nothing to say

scars on their arms

speak for themselves

the only way

they want someone to say

“yeah,

 

 

Why are we so exhausted?  Physical and mental exhaustion, overpowering your being.  Americans are always running around, always working.  Stress and anxiety-inducing tasks.  Wearing yourself out comes all too easily.  Many people do burn-outs with their cars for fun, many more do burn-outs with their jobs, for anti-fun.  9-5 is a way of life.  Let’s face it, work takes up the majority of your time.  Those long moments between doing what you actually want to do.  We are all running around, but are we actually going anywhere? What are we really accomplishing when most of our days are spent devoting our time and effort towards the goals of a company?  Sadly, the structure and nature of this capitalist society cannot be changed, so we must face it head on;

What is boredom exactly?  Are we so over-stimulated that regular activities just don’t give us sufficient stimulation anymore?  Those with depression often deal with boredom but boredom is not merely being depressed; many individuals experience this phenomena despite living regular happy lives.  Is boredom a side-effect of this instant-gratification culture?  Is it a symptom of the culture?  More and more people are experiencing boredom everyday.  Direct contact with the boring, the mundane, the inescapable.  Direct confrontation with the droning and monotonous; an aspect of life that many of us know all too well.  Sitting in your car at a long red light, on your boring drive home from work; sitting in bed on your computer while it’s raining, with nothing to do.  I am in a state of boredom while I write this post, but I am forcing myself to complete it. 

 

we live in a world

you are a person

so much to do

in this grand circus

find your way through

welcome every morning

turn toward the light

dispel the darkness

find the others

find the like-minded

humble yourself

only take what is given

be who you are

be a good person

worship your God

with prayers and devotion

do what you want

find your true purpose

solve that great puzzle

find what is missing

from God’s great work

bring to completion

 

investigate

all of this mystery

find the unknown

that you may know it

there is a great treasure

only you can find it

freely given

but you have to take it

you must meet Him halfway

in order to gain it

from monkey to man

right back to angel

we are becoming

something more than human

we are entering

a new age of man

a full human being

not even lacking

 

 

Eternal Recurrence, Eternal Return.  The snake swallowing its own tail.  Eternal Recurrence is “a theory that the universe and all existence and energy has been recurring, and will continue to recur, in a self-similar form an infinite number of times across infinite time or space.” (“Eternal Return,” n.d.)

 

The phrase, “there is nothing new under the sun” seems to fit well with this theory.  Also, the idea of “lost knowledge”, that which had been known before, that will be known again.

 

The divine incarnation, Jesus (and possibly others), may also follow this cycle; bringing this great work to completion by being born again.  Possibly coming again under a different flavor; the same thing, yet slightly different; a full Krishna,

 

Souls, fully immaterial, cast into the world, to merge with the material.  We are born from our mother and father, just as our souls were born from The Mother and The Father.  We were born into a vast ocean that is the world, and accustom ourselves to swimming.  Deep or shallow water, it does and does not make a difference.  Our senses are tuned in, so is all higher thought; and we naturally try to make sense of this thing.  We form experiences, beliefs, and we get to know ourselves and others; we have preferences.  We form an identity.  “I am such and such a person”, because others have told me and I believe so myself.

 

We are all too close to this society to look at our situation objectively;