*Disclaimer: This is just a creative writing exercise,
intended to create a dark mood / feeling; the feeling of
someone trapped in isolation and depression with no way out.
If you are feeling like self-harm please talk to someone,
some people cut themselves
just to feel something
to confront their pain
and face it head on
some people cut themselves
to feel alive
to know that they’re breathing
to know that they control
what happens in their life
they want to escape
they want to be present
they want to exist
but they might rather die
they want to scream out loud
nobody listening
they’re tired of people
with all of their lies
they want to be cared for
they want to be loved
but they’d much rather be
up above
at least someone cares up there
nobody gets them
no one is there
existence is pain
so why not confront it
hiding your pain
and creating your own
want to be heard
nothing to say
scars on their arms
speak for themselves
the only way
they want someone to say
“yeah, I get you”
no one will say
lack of compassion
scars on their arms
the only way
trapped in a corner
transfer of pain
a smaller corner
no way out
deep suffocation
mad at this life
mad at existence
mad for existing
lost all feeling
suffering in silence
cursing their mother
scars on their arms
the only way
slashing their arms
trickle of blood
feel of euphoria
feeling alive
that feeling is fleeting
sucking of blood
feeling like vampire
they want to see
blood
in everything else
they want to watch
the entire world burn
cursing existence
cursing God
blood is the only thing
that slightly satisfies
killing yourself slowly
we will all die
doomed for that fate
like everyone else
struggling to make it
but we will get by
despite all this suffering
despite what you’re going through
no matter how dark it is
the day always brings light
hold on to hope
of better days to come
look down that tunnel
I can see the light
and it will surely bring forth
as long as you try
as long as you work for it
a truly happy life
always remember
there’s no one like you
you are unique
and you own your life
it takes hard work and effort
it doesn’t come easy
but boy is it worth it
go out and get it
start that adventure
it is surely out there
along with people who care
a God that loves you
who will always be there
He’s up there rooting for you
you can’t let Him down
He just wants you to try
wants you to be found
He knows who you are
more than you know it
He sees the beautiful you
when you look in the mirror
you will find that place
where you are content
it is surely within reach
heaven-sent
a life-line for you
when you truly need it
you are always one step away
from being truly happy
just breathe deeply
and feel the present fully
you will be at peace
when you conquer those demons
